You are my mother so I must love you, but I can no longer stand you living with me. I took you in to help you stay away from your abusive ex-husband, and the drugs. In this I have succeeded. In every other way you have abused my hospitality. All I have asked have been simple things. If I leave something on the kitchen table and then leave for an hour I expect it to still be there. If I leave with a program running on my computer I expect it to still be running when I get back. If I leave some cash in my bedroom I expect it to still be there, unless there is some huge emergency. This was supposed to be temporary until you could get on your feet. It has been close to two years now. You have made my life so much harder. You helped drive away my partner of many years. I cannot do this anymore. We cannot both live her any more, and it is my house damn it.
I am very much annoyed with myself at this point in time. I have very foolishly entered into a relationship with someone that I thought could make me happy. I am not sitting here and I have no idea what it is that I should do next. I moved in with him after only knowing him for three days, I knew that I loved him and I thought that I had been blessed by fate. Then he is sick and he doesn’t feel like physical contact then he is spends almost all of his time texting on his phone.
Then I lose my head and I look through the phone just to see and there it is a naked picture of a girl and an answer to the picture that I didn’t want to hear. Then I forgive you, but you do not stop. There is a picture of a new girl. You leave for the day and come back with a hickey on your neck and the deny it’s very existence. Then you break my heart and tell me that there is too much in your life to deal with a girlfriend. Then two days later you show up with another hickey on you neck.
It kills me. It’s not that I am so upset about him but that I always fail. I am so tired of failing. I am lost alone and I don’t know what to do next. I just don’t know what to do. I am sick of picking up the pieces of my life. I am afraid that the only way for me not to have to do this is to be alone. My greatest fear is being alone. I don’t want to be alone anymore. He is in the room with me now, but I have never felt more alone in the world than I do now.
We have had a roller coaster of a relationship the last few years, sometimes you have something for me, other times you are just empty inside… it hurts to see you so empty, and to know that you may be empty for a while. I have tried talking to you, begging you to just be ‘more’ but you give me nothing, I put so much into you and everything just rips you open and takes it all out. I am sorry we let the bank have it’s way with you, had I known that was going to happen we would have never introduced you.
I hope you will help be more stingy with yourself in the future, not allow your insides to become so empty. I know it is going to take a lot of work on my part to fix this relationship, but we will get there, we will figure it out like we always do… I need you, and I love you… I just wish there was more in you.
oh wait, you already did that to me. After 13 years of friendship and you just drop me. I wanted to – no I deserved to – be the one to drop you! I need to let you go, the friendship is over, isn’t that what matters?
NO!
I need closure. For some weird reason I want to tell you everything that has been sitting inside me all these years. I want to tell you how hurt it made me every time you would ignore me for months and then all of a sudden act like nothing was wrong. Why did I love you so much? Was it because deep inside I wanted a friend so badly that I was willing to put up with you?
I want to tell you this to your face!
But you have unfriended me on facebook, won’t return my calls or emails. What gives you the right to drop me? Why did you get the pleasure of dragging me along on a 13 year friendship and then you say when to rip the chord?
I feel so used, so cheated. I don’t even get the pleasure of telling you off.
Perhaps that is wise. I should have let you go when you graduated high school. It is hard to do that when we live in the same small town the entire 13 years though. My friends know you and running into you is so possible.
You were my maid of honor!
I was at your son’s birth!
I was there for you when your baby’s daddy cheated on you!
I helped you with your business by introducing you to my friends.
And the entire time you kept acting like you were there for me too. But you started to show your true colors. You started to answer less and less phone calls.
I just want to know what you think I did wrong – cause you are insane! I have been nothing but a good friend to you! I am not writing this letter because I want you back as a friend – you suck at that job – but I want closure. I want vindication. I want to say goodbye. I don’t want you to be the one to drop me because I don’t deserve that!
But at least I got it all out and I can move on.
Signed,
Too Good a Friend For You.
There were so many happy times with you. Going out to dnner, going for a drink, or just for a drive in the car. You have an infectious sense of humour, you don’t take lift too seriously and I liked that about you . You are attractive and I always liked the fact I sometimes saw other guy’s giving you a look! Made me feel good about myself.
What I did not like about you was you temper and the violence that I had to face from you. I never done anything that deserved that behaviour and committing it in front of your own child is really unforgivable.
I hardly have any relationship with my child and it’s all because of you. You have kept my son from having any proper father son relationship. It must have an affect on him. He needs to grow up with his mum and dad that don’t talk and that really is unforgivable.
My other son has only saw him 5 times; my other son is 2 now. What has the two of them done to deserve this? Not only does he grow up without any meaningful relationship with his dad he has a half brother he rarely sees. You are only punishing your son, you think you would have put him first but no you want to continue to try to punish me for having the sense to end our relationship.
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Dear single friends,
We all go to the same bars and dance to the same songs and drink the same drinks. I listen to your troubles finding love sympathetically and offer advice when it is solicited. I sit left out while you chat each other up and flirt, feeling isolated and unincluded. Sometimes it feels like nobody wants to talk to me once they find out I’m not a potential mate and don’t want THAT kind of contact or attention, or maybe they don’t want people getting the wrong idea that they are after me instead of just listening to a friend.
After all, I am “a good catch.” I bet you didn’t know that even though I am beautiful, intelligent, successful and have someone, that I am just as lonely as you are. Maybe more so, because I have been trapped in a romance-free marriage for a long time now. Just because it looks like I am successful and happy doesn’t mean it’s true. I am not happy and very confused. I don’t think anyone cares. My partner does not listen when I try to talk about it. Won’t someone notice when I reach out for help? It is really hard for me to open up about things.
I like to solve my own problems and don’t like being a burden on anyone. It is hard to figure out your troubles when you have no one to REALLY talk to though. It is so much easier to just plod along and pretend. After all, it looks like I’m doing fine… Maybe it is my own fault. Oh, I know it is. I am only human though. I’m just tired of being a friend to others, while not having anyone be a real friend to me. My troubles are real too. All I really want is someone to spend time w/ me and really listen. To feel connected to something human again. I feel ashamed and isolated; a failure.














