Mother,
The last time I saw you, when I was 15, half a decade ago, you told me you had done your best. And I believed you.
Your best wasn’t good enough.
You said you loved me. And I don’t believe you. If that is what love is, I don’t want anything to do with it.
You didn’t love me enough to protect me from him. You didn’t love me enough to believe me.
I’m not afraid of you or of him anymore, and I feel confident that neither of you will ever be able to find me.
You have hurt me, but you no longer have any impact on my life. Nothing that you did, nothing that he did, none of it has scarred or damaged me. I won’t let it. You have no power over me.
I’m a strong, brave, compassionate person. And you have nothing to do with that. And it’s sad that you won’t get to be a part of my life. It’s sad that you’re too afraid to do what I did and just leave, run away, start over.
I forgive you. May you find peace and happiness.
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4 Responses to “Mother, I forgive you…”
Nov 21st, 2009 at 1:35 pm
no matter what she is still your mother. learn to forgive and forget keep your head up and move forward. learn from what you have gone through and be the best mother to your child. just let it go and treat your mother with kindness if she ever comes around especially if shes looking for forgiveness take her with open arms and start fresh. no matter what in life you do wrong to someone it comes back around ten times stronger. keep your head up baby girl good luck and god bless
Nov 21st, 2009 at 1:40 pm
beautiful letter, good for you for writing this and for forgiving her, that is often harder to do than staying resentful. Thanks for sharing!
Nov 26th, 2009 at 9:09 pm
I am so sorry.
Nov 28th, 2009 at 10:28 pm
That was very touching!