I cannot think of how many tears I have cried over you. I put every piece of me into you,and all you did was take advantage of me. There is not one thing in the world that I would not have done for you. I took the blame when you wrecked my car into a tree. I had just gotten that car and you destroyed it without a second thought. At the time I was so worried that you may get into trouble, so I paid for your sins(I’m still paying for them by the way).
You slept with so many woman you have almost killed my ability to have children. Thanks you fucking Jerk. Two years away from you has not made me love you any less. Did you know that when you made me have that abortion I tried to hate you. I wanted to so badly, I did want that baby. You really screwed me up; I had to be taken for overnight observation because every one was afraid that I would kill myself. In a way I did. I cannot trust any man. I have found a man that I am crazy about and I cannot stop thinking about when he is going to leave me.
I have become so bitter. I only trust about 10% of what a man tells me. Thank you for breaking me you strung out drug addicted asshole. I lost so much and the worst part is I don’t know that I wouldn’t do it again. I do love you, but I’m not that girl anymore. I am going to be happy even if I have to force myself. I will, without a doubt in mind move past you. All you are is a worthless drain on society and it’s resources.
One last thing, I am sorry that I was the one who told you about Josh. That did break my heart. I still think about him everyday. I still think of the life we would have had if he hadn’t over dosed. I am ashamed of you and your brother for not cleaning up your act after your baby brother died. You both of you were the ones that were suppose to be setting an example for him. I did my best to set an example for you and Josh. He could still be alive if it were not for the selfish influence that you had over his life. You taught Bake how to use then he taught Josh so the way I see it, IT IS YOUR FAULT THAT YOUR BABY BROTHER DIED. Sleep with that. I am letting you go I never want to think of you again. You are toxic.
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2 Responses to “You Are Toxic”
Posted: Dec 4th, 2009 at 11:48 pm
Wow! That’s a lot to go through. I can completely understand why you would be bitter and untrusting. You have every right. BUT – you have every right to be happy and to heal. Let yourself feel better and enjoy life!
Posted: Dec 5th, 2009 at 3:48 pm
Learn from the past as not to repeat it, but do not live there you will find only sadness.