Dear single friends,
We all go to the same bars and dance to the same songs and drink the same drinks. I listen to your troubles finding love sympathetically and offer advice when it is solicited. I sit left out while you chat each other up and flirt, feeling isolated and unincluded. Sometimes it feels like nobody wants to talk to me once they find out I’m not a potential mate and don’t want THAT kind of contact or attention, or maybe they don’t want people getting the wrong idea that they are after me instead of just listening to a friend.

After all, I am “a good catch.” I bet you didn’t know that even though I am beautiful, intelligent, successful and have someone, that I am just as lonely as you are. Maybe more so, because I have been trapped in a romance-free marriage for a long time now. Just because it looks like I am successful and happy doesn’t mean it’s true. I am not happy and very confused. I don’t think anyone cares. My partner does not listen when I try to talk about it. Won’t someone notice when I reach out for help? It is really hard for me to open up about things.

I like to solve my own problems and don’t like being a burden on anyone. It is hard to figure out your troubles when you have no one to REALLY talk to though. It is so much easier to just plod along and pretend. After all, it looks like I’m doing fine… Maybe it is my own fault. Oh, I know it is. I am only human though. I’m just tired of being a friend to others, while not having anyone be a real friend to me. My troubles are real too. All I really want is someone to spend time w/ me and really listen. To feel connected to something human again. I feel ashamed and isolated; a failure.

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