I still love you, but something has changed. I wish I could look at you with the same gaze of love that you look at me with. You are jealous, boring, and emotionally distant to the point that you lie to me and keep me totally out of the loop, and warm and familiar and…my best friend. I don’t want to lose you. I am lonely for emotional connection and the thought of this being the last romantic connection I ever have for the rest of my life makes me sad. I worry that one day I will betray you and myself. At least it is a familiar kind of sad…
I’ve tried to talk to you about it, but it seems like I can’t reach you. I know I’m distant too because of this, and stress and sacrifices we made. This price seems unfair for what we gained, the road to success.
I’m going to have to rethink this if I still feel this way on my next birthday. I hope we find our way, and each find happiness. I hope that I am always a part of your life to share your happiness with you, even if we discover we’ve grown apart in the end as well.
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