I am very much annoyed with myself at this point in time. I have very foolishly entered into a relationship with someone that I thought could make me happy. I am not sitting here and I have no idea what it is that I should do next. I moved in with him after only knowing him for three days, I knew that I loved him and I thought that I had been blessed by fate. Then he is sick and he doesn’t feel like physical contact then he is spends almost all of his time texting on his phone.
Then I lose my head and I look through the phone just to see and there it is a naked picture of a girl and an answer to the picture that I didn’t want to hear. Then I forgive you, but you do not stop. There is a picture of a new girl. You leave for the day and come back with a hickey on your neck and the deny it’s very existence. Then you break my heart and tell me that there is too much in your life to deal with a girlfriend. Then two days later you show up with another hickey on you neck.
It kills me. It’s not that I am so upset about him but that I always fail. I am so tired of failing. I am lost alone and I don’t know what to do next. I just don’t know what to do. I am sick of picking up the pieces of my life. I am afraid that the only way for me not to have to do this is to be alone. My greatest fear is being alone. I don’t want to be alone anymore. He is in the room with me now, but I have never felt more alone in the world than I do now.
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17 Responses to “I never learn from my mistakes!”
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 9:11 am
I think this person needs some help. She’s putting herself in a position where her self-esteem is going to take a beating every single day. And moving in with someone after three days because she’s “in love?” … I think the red flags all over that one can be seen by the international space station.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 9:21 am
How sad. Just remember to look inside for the good and strength in yourself and get out of this. You are better than you think.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 3:49 pm
You are better than this. Life sometimes throws us unfortunate situations that test our grit. You are better-deserve better.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 4:40 pm
This is an abusive relationship and you need to get out honey. You will be a better person when yo can look back and see you made the right decision.
Kas
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 5:24 pm
I think you deserve better. Why do this to yourself. You can do it, stop beating yourself up.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 6:19 pm
I think you need to get out as soon as you can. You sound very lonely and moved in way to fast. Get on your own and learn more about who you are so that you can seek the happiness you deserve, rather, once you find who you are happiness will follow u! ((HUGS))
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:18 pm
aww i am sorry. i hope things get better for you and you find the right guy.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:19 pm
So sorry you are dealing with all of this!
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:19 pm
You deserve so much better and there is way better out there! What a scum bag, go away and never return to him again! Don’t be afraid of being alone. Learn to love who you are and then once you are confident and loving yourself first someone else will see your true beauty!
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:19 pm
Being alone is better than being with someone who sucks.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:20 pm
Hugs, hugs but you need to leave and no you are not a failure. My bestfriend went through this.
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:20 pm
Def. Think you need to get at now. You deserve so much better. You need to discover yourself and put yourself first and all else will fall in place. You need to find someone worthy of you not someone that is just there..(((HUGS))) Good Luck
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:21 pm
Just read a blog post that you might find encouraging at
http://thepartyplancoach.com/2010/02/top-ten-tuesday-overcoming-failure/
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:22 pm
1st I love your blog makeover. 2nd He’s a dirt bag and you don’t need that. COnsider him the pile of shit we need to step over in a door way to good quality men. YOu don’t deserve that and there are better men out there. YOur not alone.
HUGS sweetie
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 7:28 pm
You deserve better!!!
Posted: Feb 25th, 2010 at 8:41 pm
Honey,
You deserve BETTER! Never accept less, ever! Go do something fun for yourself, just YOU! Hugs!
Posted: Mar 10th, 2010 at 2:47 am
don’t be sad…Life have some jigs…ups and downs…Well what you have done cannot be reversed…choose wisely from now and do everything by considiring all factors…I am sure God want you happy..