I will never understand why you decide to take people away, or why some of those people are so young. Recently you took away a friends two year old little boy, Bryson, he fell into a pool, why didn’t you stop it, why didn’t you use your power to alert his mommy to the problem? Why have you chosen to take him, leaving behind so many people that loved him? And leaving a mother and a big brother that will almost certainly feel guilty for something that could have happened to anyone? 
How unfair. You have taken from me as well, you took my baby girl Ashley Nicole when she was just two months old. The doctors called it SIDS, I call it crap, there was no reason for it, I was a GOOD mother, I loved her so much, yet you took her from me with no warning, while you leave children with mothers and family that abuse them, that don’t deserve the gift of a child. Why me? Why Shellie?
I used to have no doubt you existed, but ever since the loss of my baby girl I have lost that faith, more than anything I hope you don’t exist, I know I may go to hell for saying that, but you know- if you are really there and you decide to send me to hell for feeling the way I do, or decide to send anyone that kills themselves because they just can’t find the strength to go on anymore, if you really do just send people to hell for that, then I don’t want to be in your heaven. I can’t imagine a god that would send people to hell for being conflicted, if you are all powerful then you know what is in my heart, you know I try so very hard to believe in you, to trust you, to have faith, but I see things happen like the loss of Bryson, and all the other children and families suffering so much loss that I just can’t get to a point where I feel you are really there. Read the rest of this entry »
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