Crystal,
I realize you didn’t know beforehand that he had a girlfriend because you probably were doing the same thing i was when you found his profile. He says he is going to delete his myspace and stop talking to you. I’m not sure how to feel about this.
I wont believe that he is going to delete the profile and stop talking to you until it happens. The problem i’m having is that I feel like its not fair for me to tell him to stop talking to you because, if what he says is true, he told you he had a gf and things wouldn’t go past friendship, and he talks to you about life. I think he needs to talk to someone other than me and his family. I feel like i should be ok with him talking to you if it makes him feel better about things. But the whole situation just bothers me too much.
The fact that he hid it from me for a month bothers me. the fact that he lied about it multiple times bothers me. This just tells me that he didn’t want me to know because he knew it would hurt me if i ever read what was said between you two. Thats where i come from when i say that I dont like it. I dont want to happen anymore. I want him to talk to me and focus on me as much as he has done with you this last month.
If things continue, Im going to leave. I dont know how you feel about having that on your conscience, but if it were me in your shoes, i would feel like complete shit. I would feel like im a home wrecker who got involved with a wonderful man who had a girlfriend who loved him too much and did everything she possibly could to make him happy. That being said, it’s not your fault either. I dont know you, I know him. And it is his fault if he loses me. Hes the one that chose to pick you, someone he has never met, over the woman that he has said he wants to marry one day and have children with. The one that sacrificed everything she had when he was going to be homeless to make sure he wasn’t, when we had only been together 4 months.
I only say that im going to leave because he HAS said that he isn’t going to talk to you anymore. because he knows how i feel. I want him to be open with me about his feeling. and to be honest, the things that i have seen him talk to you about, he has talked to me about too.
Please stop. for the sake of both my heart and his. If you have any sort of feelings for him at all…you’ll stop. He would be devastated if i left. I know this because he cries when i talk about it. You have never had that sweet pleasure of seeing someone as strong as him break down over you. That shows me he loves me. You’re just a small temptation getting in the way of our happiness. It would be best for you to just stop and put your efforts toward someone available.
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