This is never going to work. I hate that he pointed it out to me, out of all people. The guy I have secretly liked for the best part of a year points out that you and me are no good for one another. I should have just left things after I tried to explain it wasn’t going to work. I guess I just thought maybe I still wanted to be with you I was just looking for excuses because I had liked him.
I was wrong. It’s really nothing to do with him but now I have realised for real we can’t work I don’t know what to do.
I just can’t be that girl: You don’t take care of yourself. You do a lot of drugs, ciggies and drink all the time. You just haven’t changed and just seem the same as that deluded teenager I liked a few years back but you not a teenager any more. You haven’t grown up and your not going to anytime soon where as I am progressing with my life and have changed so much in the past 2 years and all you do is just drag me right back down. We have nothing in common, we are in two different worlds and though for whatever reason I can’t help but like you as a person and feel guilty about this situation, I don’t see how whatever it is we are doing could ever work. It can’t and I should have said so but I chickened out and instead just made things worse and more intense. Well done me.
I feel a bit sickened by myself.
No, I feel sickened by myself.
I don’t know how to tell you this, I don’t even quite know what I want to say apart from I don’t think we should see each other again but how do I say that. How?
From sorry I made a mess of it all.
P.S. How can I fix this so no one gets hurt?
P.P.S. It’s not like I can/will tell/talk to you about this so I don’t even know why I am writing this letter.