Jonathan

Jonathan, I hate you. Out of all my exes you are the one that I loved the most. I thought we were meant to be. You told me we were. You told me you would love me forever. Well forever -in your book- was the time to took for your dick to become flaccid again after you took my virginity. I loved you. I told you I would do anything for you. I would walk over hot coals for you and you knew all that.

You knew you had me wrapped around your finger and you took advantage of my naivete. You made me fall deeply in love with you and only to find I was the rebound from your ex Tiffany. Well you told me that she cheated on you with your best friend, classy girl huh? She looks like a tranny drag queen on crack. She is a nasty skank ho that you had a baby with and now you’re SOOOOO happy apparently. What did she have that I don’t? NO morals? NO values? NO talent,brains, tact or beauty? I was the best you (the white trash, abusive, angry, twisted, loser, high school dropout) was EVER gonna get and you blew it.

You got bored after I gave you the only thing a woman can give to a man one time in her life -her virginity. I guess you were just biding your time until SHE came back huh? Well i wonder if she knows the date of your supposed anniversary with her was around the time we were together. I bet you cheated on her with me. How classy! You are a waste of human flesh and a waste of my care, concern, time and my beautiful heart. I actually pity you because you have no idea WHO I AM and WHAT YOU’VE LOST. You have no concept. I am better without you and even though it’s been a long time I’ve never felt the way about a man that I feel about you. I was head over heels for you and you abused that.

You will never be happy because you are an angry boy (not a man) that will never be okay. You only want to hurt everyone to try to ease your pain. I gave you my all, my best, my heart, my loyalty, my love, my time, my money , my concern, my sex and my whole life and you stomped on my soul and blackened it. You have put a shadow on my soul but not anymore. I officially let you go and all the memories. Good and bad. Happy and sad.Passionate and Passionless. so f**k you. Goodbye my sweet blond boy with the clear blue eyes that could not get over his pain. Goodbye, I won’t be the keeper and guard of these bitter emotions anymore.

I love you and always will but you don’t love me so I will let you free and me free in turn. I hate you so much. f**k you for getting to me and then leaving me. f**k you for ever meeting me and f**k you for forgetting me so easily. cuz i never forgot you and I want to so badly. This is the final goodbye…so have that one last kiss and let it be dripping, laced with poison as your kisses and words have stabbed my heart and shrapnel embedded in the vulnerable corridors will forever lie there my sweet evil boy.

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