I cannot think of how many tears I have cried over you. I put every piece of me into you,and all you did was take advantage of me. There is not one thing in the world that I would not have done for you. I took the blame when you wrecked my car into a tree. I had just gotten that car and you destroyed it without a second thought. At the time I was so worried that you may get into trouble, so I paid for your sins(I’m still paying for them by the way).
You slept with so many woman you have almost killed my ability to have children. Thanks you fucking Jerk. Two years away from you has not made me love you any less. Did you know that when you made me have that abortion I tried to hate you. I wanted to so badly, I did want that baby. You really screwed me up; I had to be taken for overnight observation because every one was afraid that I would kill myself. In a way I did. I cannot trust any man. I have found a man that I am crazy about and I cannot stop thinking about when he is going to leave me. (more…)
I miss you. I miss our friendship. I miss our mutual loves, and mutual hatred. Even with romantic love gone, I miss the familial love. I miss having someone who understood my hardships and shared them with me.
I hope you get this in time, in time not to skip school today. Because if you do skip school today you are making a big mistake. Things are going to happen that will change you forever. Trust me, I’m you.
Today will be a horrible day, filled with happiness and stupidity, and you wont even know it is bad until the end. When you discover that your father tried to pick you up at school because your mother was dying. Yes, she is getting into a car accident today, and only lives for a few hours, wanting to say goodbye.
But you are going to skip school today, go to the mall and do things that you shouldn’t. Today is the day you loose your virginity and you will be awfully disappointed with that experience, as a matter of fact, the guy you are planning on having sex with gets arrested tomorrow and you won’t see him again for a year.
When you finally go home, hours after school ended, you will see police cars and a devastated father. You will assume you are in trouble, but will soon find out that what you did was not the matter at hand, yes, police are looking for you, to tell you your mother is dead. Your father will look at you as if you are the biggest disappointment, and you will feel that look to the core. Why did you have to skip today?
So if this letter somehow makes it back in time, please, please don’t skip school. And be sure to tell your mother you love her instead of leaving in a fight. The rest of your life will be haunted by today, no matter what happens, so try to change it.
Me…
You said that I was your only reason for being “alive.” I have loved you with my whole heart since the moment I met you. Your mysteriousness, your charm, it all attracted you to me. I fell in love with your family. I love you, I love Alice, I even love Rosalie’s harshness.
Then you left me. I have been dead since that moment. I have no reason to live, you took my heart and my life when you moved away, never talking to me. I’m not dead the way you are, but worse. I can’t do anything- I don’t eat, I don’t see any of my friends. Charlie is worried that I may kill myself. My dreams are filled with you, they tear through me in the middle of the night, ripping through me in screams of agony and tearing me up like a hidden beast lying within.
It eats at me just waiting to kill me. I enjoy the pain. It reminds me that you really did exist. It keeps me alive to feel that raw, burning love deep inside me. I miss you Edward- I miss you’re cold sparkly skin, your sweet smell and your protection that I never knew I needed. I need you Edward. I need you to protect me from myself. I love you, and I will always love you. I can’t leave Forks. I can’t ever leave for fear that you will come back and I will miss you. Come back to me Edward.
Love always,
Bella
Times are so hard now that you’re gone. I have no one to cry to who will listen and care. Everyday I think about you guys. I hate it so much that you were taken from me. I have no one. I have no one to look to for guidance, I have no one to tell me that its going to be ok. Why did you leave us so soon. You didn’t tell us goodbye you just left us. I know you cant come back. But if you can see this if you can feel my thoughts please remember me. Because I will never forget you.
What does this make you feel?
I want to hear what this picture makes you feel. For me it reminds me that the problems I have right now are not so big. What about you. Say whatever is on you mind.
